Life with Emotions

04 June 2015

Hello, this is my first time ever writing and I want to introduce myself to you all, My Name is Lea Heart and I am coming up to the age of 20 years old. I haven’t really done much in my life because I haven’t really had the chance, I know, I have nearly lived 20 years and I haven’t done much?

I have lived through life with different emotions like one minute I think something and then I feel something else within the matter of seconds…

I have written poems on a poetry site for 3 years now and looking back at them all seems like I have trying to fight through life, I write about how I feel and I also have written about what has been going in with my life.

I have a boyfriend who I am madly in love with, When I see him I feel like I’ve fallen in love all over again. I don’t know what I would do if I didn’t have him in my life right now, We have been through so much together and its been 2 years and 5 months. It is a very long time isn’t it? He is my world and love of my life.

I do have 2 brothers and 1 sister but I have a brother that hates be right now because I am calling my mums boyfriend dad but that is only because I haven’t got a dad any more…he left when I was only a baby at the age of one years old.

I have had so much fear in my childhood years through older men which is from the age of 30-40 years old.  I hope I am not babbling on too much but its how I feel and I want to share it with you…

I lost my apprenticeship 2 weeks ago…I working in a pharmacy but they didn’t give me much of a chance, I feel like they expected me to learn everything in 1 week of me being there but it was just too impossible, just like Boots, they shoved me in the deep end.

In the pharmacy I was humiliated by one member of staff making me stand on one leg, I did what he asked to stand on one leg but I thought to myself ‘stand on one leg, this is stupid’ so i put my foot down and as he was speaking to another member of staff he stopped and looked at much and said “put your foot back up” eventually he let me put it back down but during that time my face was boiling hot and I bet it was beetroot red…

During the time of him making me do that I felt the world close in on me and I wanted to disappear and be invisible….

What would you do if any of you guys was in that position? would you do what I did or do something different? baring in mind I was only there for 2 weeks and had to be good too shoes…

please comment below and share your experiences at work.


10 thoughts on “Life with Emotions

  1. Oh Gosh. I have had so many embarrassing experiences at work I can’t count them. From me doing something incompetent, to sexual harassment, to bullying. It does get better and we learn from all our experiences. Then it gets a little worse through life’s trials but your life experience helps you cringe less. Writing REALLY helps. Hugs.

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  2. I wish blogging was around when I was your age – I would have loved communicating with like-minded friends. It does get better – especially if you think positively. Volunteering helped me recover from a traumatic childhood – seeing that other people were struggling with life and that I could make a difference.

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    • Does volunteering work for everyone?? I need a job and my mums pressurising me….I love blogging and reading and helping others 🙂 I know how you feel though… I’ve had a traumatic childhood and teenage life, I just want to be happy and live like a normal person…..


      • Volunteering does not work for everyone but as someone who regularly interviewed people for jobs, I always thought better of those who did volunteer and sometimes their experience got them the job. If you want to work in retail, for example, and have no experience, it might help to volunteer in a thrift shop. Do what your instinct tells you. Hugs.

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